Today’s post comes from the Daily Prompt: I Am a Rock.
Is it easy for you to ask for help when you need it, or do you prefer to rely only on yourself? Why?
I HATE asking anyone for help. It’s not that I’m arrogant. It’s that I hate being a burden. When I feel like a burden, I apologize–even when I’m not a burden. And when I apologize, I annoy people. And when I annoy people, I feel worthless. I crumble. And then I HATE feeling that way about myself. I don’t want to empower others by letting them think they made me feel weak.
So, no, it is NOT easy for me to ask for help.
But does relying on myself make me a rock?
Am I sturdy, unmoving, hard, strong? I already admitted to crumbling, so there goes that lie.
Call me Soapstone.
Soapstone is a metamorphic rock, i.e. a rock that has changed its form due to heat and pressure that occur with the shifting of the tectonic plates.
Though soapstone may crumble, there are a few other characteristics that make it interesting.
- It’s easy to scratch the surface of soapstone, even with a fingernail. It’s sensitive.
- It’s also durable and moldable and works great as an insulator due to its low electrical conductivity.
- Soapstone is resistant to acids and alkalis.
- Artists rely on soapstone to create inlaid designs and sculptures. It also works well as a counter top, a cooking surface or a gravestone.
- Soapstone absorbs, stores and radiates heat. It’s a great material for a fireplace.
- Because soapstone is so easy to work with, it’s known as “the quiet stone.”
- Some people say soapstone has a calming effect.
But back to the topic — asking others for help. It’s just something I’m not comfortable doing. But lately, it seems I’ve had to humble myself and just say, “Help.”
In the last month, my computers have gone bonkers. I don’t know how to fix them, so I’ve had to ask for help. I don’t know how to get back into the writing game, so I’ve had to humble myself and go back to my mentors and say, “Help.” And I won’t even go into all my other issues. I need help. But I’d rather give it.
I am a rock. I am soapstone.
No, I don’t have thick skin, but my sensitivity allows me to communicate with others on a deeper level. I’m approachable. I’m flexible. I go with the flow.
I teach, and rarely do I ever lose it in the classroom. I absorb a lot. I don’t always have to be right. And all things considered, I’m pretty resilient. I don’t break down that easily.
Simply put, when it comes to asking for help or relying on myself, I am a rock.
Get your writing game on and try out the Daily Prompt. You can find it here: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/04/daily-prompt-self/ .
WORDS OF WISDOM
“My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.” ~ Psalm 18:2
I’ve built walls, / A fortress deep and mighty, / That none may penetrate. / I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain. / It’s laughter and it’s loving I disdain. / I am a rock, / I am an island. ~ “I Am by Rock” by Simon and Garfunkel
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